What does summer mean to you??

When you look back at a typical summer in your past what do you think of?? Does it mean more vacations?? Just good weather and you still have to work?? Does it mean a sense of freedom?? Does it make you relax?? Does it mean a break from school and only having to work and not balance work and school?? Does it mean more time to hang out with friends??

When you look back a typical summer in your past did you grow in Christ??

I remember being in high school and the warning that was always given to us as we left school in the spring… the warning not stop growing in Christ during the summer. I always said that I would keep growing and stay strong… ironically I can’t think of a single summer where I didn’t slip backwards in my spiritual life.

Looking back summer was a time where I could get away with more… there were less rules and it meant a certain freedom. Because of this it meant the tendency towards certain self destructive acts. I certainly abused my freedom.

The beginning of this summer started out with a choice… was I going to continue on in my typical summer pattern??

The summer started off on the wrong foot… but God used this for good. I fell flat on my face in front of a Holy God… and cried out for help. God answered in a powerful way.

I wondered how he could still love me after the things I’ve done. Yes I know I’m a Christian but how could he still love me after I have been anything but honoring to him??

He reminded me of his unfailing love for me… a love that is not based on what I have done or will do but a love that is based on his deep burning passion for me… when ever I get a glimpse of the undying love he has for me it brings me to tears. The only thing I can do is say thank you and worship him.

Because God has given me the passion to live this summer to please him I have learned so much. Here is one of the things I’ve learned:

I am a single female. I think pretty much all my female friends are either married or dating someone. I am a pretty content person generally but living in a world that tells me that I should be dating someone is not easy. Everything comes in twos. Even though I generally don’t really desire to have a relationship (not that I would mind though), I see those around me with their husbands (wives) or boyfriend (girlfriend) and want one.
About 3 months ago I started a new job (I thank God so much for this job he knew I needed it) and I picked up the book “And she lived happily ever after”. God has used this book to teach me a lot.
“Our goal is to find contentment in God alone. If we learn to wait on him rather than the perfect husband (or wife), we’ll experience contentment much sooner…. How we view our singleness hinges on how completely we give our plans and ambitions and desires into God’s hands.”
This summer I’ve come to value my life as a single person in a much much deeper way. I’m still surrounded by groups of twos but instead of being annoyed I just pray to my Father in Heaven asking for a deeper knowledge of him and praying that I would find my satisfaction in him and only him. The result of this has been more joy and contentment in God than I have ever experienced. I can also see how God is using this to produce in me a deeper desire for him.


I think that is all for now… I’ll write more later… I’ve got a lot of things running through my head… sleep being one of the prominent ones…. J

Up coming topics could include…
Mission trip thoughts…
Waking up…
What are you really doing with your life…
Song lyrics…

Update

I’m trying to make a new commitment to journal/blog more… because I’m on so many blogs the post will all the same… so regardless of where you go… you’ll read the same thing… which makes it easier for me… and well for you too… you only need to check one of them… :)